京奴日记

        那是立冬日，大雾。

        屋内观摩影视半天，至黄昏厌之，携器外拍。

        然光影晦暗，察锐片不可得。幸忆及当日虚焦之妙美，遂行之！

      纵纵横横，谓之交通也；大小机车川流不息间，时而出现的自行车与行人顿觉渺小和笨拙了不少。突然一身影径直闯入洪流，轻按快门捕捉下这一抹红色，原来是‘M’！

      又是京城独有的青瓦红墙，路边大槐树缝隙里洒下的些许阳光亦为之增了几分姿彩；一位大姐依车依墙而立，恰逢一对父子走过，凝视……难道她想起了什么？

     心雨时整个世界都阴了下来，站在街口发呆，突然觉得整个世界都模糊了、都远离了，可视范围甚至还不足1米……

      还记得“吾日三省吾身”和“未经审视的生活不值得一过”以及诸如此类的哲语吗？我记得很清楚！因为我是一个曾经痴迷于思考的人，乐于过着吸烟、沉思、仰望天空的生活。可惜不知何时突然发现，原来思考人生、总结生活只是一件类似华丽首饰的奢侈品。                                           ——Fantasy.W

                                                                  不做京奴

                                                          年华，越狱而去

                                                          我们

                                                          从前的围观者

                                                          正被别人围观

                                                                   一

                                                          青涩和校园都是过路车

                                                          我们已经到站

                                                          条条没有尽头的路

                                                          手中只剩下一块钱

                                                          香烟，啤酒，他和她

                                                          还有曾经的文字与杂念

                                                          头颅的存储卡里

                                                          总有播不完的老影片

                                                                    二

                                                          胡同口的公交

                                                          跌打损伤的药

                                                          誓言不做京奴的人

                                                          依然委屈求全

                                                          灰色的构架上到处是灰

                                                          钢铁的巢注定生不了蛋

                                                          大雨小雨多云转晴

                                                          北京的天也不过是共和国的天

                                                                    三

                                                          死亡与无常

                                                          或许只在瞬间

                                                          仁波切们说

                                                          放下执着的欲念

                                                          北漂的生活要投币

                                                          修心的道场用生命埋单

                                                          你们

                                                          作何选

                                                                            Fantasy.W于BJ

                                                                                2009-09-10